First Date

So it finally happened, I asked Allie out on a date! On Wednesday after class I walked with her a bit and asked her out. I was super nervous and my mouth was super dry, but it went alright and was not super awkward. She was a bit surprised, but a happy surprised. The date was on Friday and we played mini golf at laser assault in Provo. It was originally a double with Seth and a girl he likes but Jarrod and Vanessa wanted to come and meet Allie so it became a triple. After mini golf we played in the nickle arcade for a bit and then went and got milk shakes at In 'n Out. As far as dates go I don't think it was an amazing one, but for a first date it went well, and definitely was not bad. And since it was my first date that was serious and not just for fun since being back from my mission, it was good. We talked but did not click amazingly, but there was no point where it was super awkward. I am not exactly sure what the next step is. I want to do something more as friends so we can get to know each other better. That is the awkward thing right now is we have hung out in the IT lab working on homework, or on a date. I want something social but not too committal. Just at the moment I am not sure what that is. Maybe get a group together and play soccer or something like that. We will see what I come up with. Dating is so awkward, I just feel so out of my element, but then so was serving a mission and that was amazing. But I have also realized why I am attracted to Allie. She has a very similar personality to Carla. She is out going, but also reserved at the same time. Since I am reserved I think I need someone more out going than me. But at the same time I do not think I could marry someone super outgoing, it might drive me crazy eventually. So Allie has that personality that I think will fit well with mine.

This week also had some girl drama as well. Hannah was visiting Utah this week and I hung out with her a lot. She is a good friend and I enjoy spending time with her. While spending time with her she said a couple of things that made me think that she liked me. Then on Tuesday we talked about it. It wasn't too awkward because we are still good friends. I just felt bad because I do not really have any interest in her. And I don't see it working out if I did try dating her. It is annoying that I have not had a serious relationship but want to have one. But I couldn't date Hannah just because I want a relationship, because it would hurt our friendship when I already know it probably won't work out. I just want a girlfriend, but want to make sure I am doing it for the right reasons, and right person, not just because I have never had one before and want to try it out.

So this is where my life is at. School is good, just busy trying to figure out my life right now. Hopefully something more happens with Allie this week.